In Fargo, a local veteran and newly published author, Mike Smith, has transformed his struggles with mental illness and addiction into a message of hope and redemption. After nearly four decades of documenting his experiences in a journal, Smith compiled his reflections into a book titled The Gutter Gospel, which was released in March 2024. This work offers an intimate look into his battle with bipolar disorder and the path he has taken toward healing.
Smith, who served in the Air Force, began journaling at a young age, capturing the emotional turmoil of his life. “I journaled for 35 years, when I had nobody to actually even share it with,” he stated. His writing not only served as an outlet but also became a foundation for his current mission to help others facing similar challenges. Through his podcast, he continues to share his story, aiming to reach a global audience while remaining committed to those in his local community.
A significant aspect of Smith’s outreach involves volunteering at Seeds of Hope in Dilworth, where he provides assistance to individuals in need. Recently, he turned down a chance to pitch his story to the Christian film industry, prioritizing his commitment to help others over personal gain. “I traded in my tickets so I could bless others less fortunate,” he explained. This selfless act highlights Smith’s dedication to uplifting those around him.
Smith’s journey has been marked by hardship. He faced numerous challenges, including stints in a padded cell at the North Dakota State Hospital. His early life was filled with trauma, beginning at age 12 when his father lost his job and later died of a heart attack. This trauma led to Smith’s first suicide attempt, followed by years of rejection and struggles with undiagnosed mental illness. Yet, through these dark times, he found moments of divine intervention.
In one chapter of The Gutter Gospel, Smith recounts a vivid dream in which Jesus invites him to wash a muddy penny in the “Sea of Tears.” This dream symbolizes his life’s purpose: to help others see their inherent worth and potential for redemption. “So many hurting people view themselves as no more valuable than a muddy penny,” he reflected, noting that his mission is to “wash one and make it shine like it’s brand new.”
The support Smith has received from his community has been instrumental in his recovery. He has formed deep connections, particularly with fellow veterans and members of his Bible study group. Kirk Seltzer, who met Smith four months ago at a men’s prayer group, described their friendship as transformative. “We just seem to understand each other real well. I find him to be sincere, and the term ‘on fire for God’ would fit,” Seltzer said.
Smith’s story resonates with many who have faced adversity. Eric Johnson, who met Smith through a Jail Chaplains event, emphasized Smith’s ability to connect with others. “He’s invited many people to our group, and now, through the podcasts, he’s more of an evangelizer,” Johnson noted. Smith’s journey has not only become a source of inspiration but also a platform for outreach.
As he continues to build his mission, Smith is pursuing opportunities to serve as a Jail Chaplain, aiming to provide support to individuals in challenging circumstances. His experiences have equipped him with a unique understanding of the struggles faced by those he hopes to help.
Smith’s resilience and generosity shine through his work, and his message remains clear: there is hope for anyone who has felt lost. “We’ve all been in the gutter to one degree or another,” he stated, emphasizing that the road to redemption is paved with grace, love, and purpose.
For more information about The Gutter Gospel and to access resources related to Smith’s outreach, visit his website at [theguttergospel.com](https://theguttergospel.com/home). Support for his mission can also be found on his fundraising page at [GoFundMe](https://www.gofundme.com/f/donate-to-mike-smiths-mission-of-love-and-recovery). Smith’s journey exemplifies the power of transformation and the impact one person can have on their community.
